my page says i dont like video games. obviously this is a lie; what i mean is i am not really a games fan. unlike the idea of music, which is flexible enough to hang onto any process at all, a "video game" describes a particular practice of consumption that is largely unrewarding and frustrating to me. extensive of that frustration with the experience of gameplaying as currently coded is my aversion to identifying with any internet activity that forms identity around the anticipation and consumption of new games, the comparison of press-released pretenses to the product, and more than anything else the fundamental attachment to the videogame as an escape. i want to get this across without moralizing or essentializing anything here: a toy like an arcade game is a mild distraction from everyday pains, and the projection of urself onto an avatar immersed in an alternate world is a muuch more advanced form of the same technology; their appeal is in their false reprieve from poor social conditions and the technology is promulgated because it allows those conditions to stand. i don't want to pretend to be *above* those socially-diffused forms of unhappiness or passivity -- sometimes i pick up n play the worst slop i can think of for the brain noise -- but that's not what i want for my life !! that's not what i want for art !! so if i like a videogame it is often because it is defiantly *not* a videogame in some way. it won't *ask* to be played; i have to choose to play it. it has to remember its own existence on the world so it can ask you to remember yours. hope that clears things up w my page